She is so cool and pretty and hanging out with her is always so much fun. She is so funny.
I am so useless and new when it comes to romance and compliments that I get flustered when I even think about the concept of her. She is my special interest, I love learning about her—her likes, dislikes, and everything in between. I want, need, and desire to know her. If she was a game, she would be Factorio. I have known it for a long time, I can't keep my mind off of it; I am completely addicted to it.
I can't wait to tell her about myself and how I feel about her. I have to constantly hold myself back and show restraint from just love dumping on her, sending her a barrage of messages asking her all the things I want to know. But I shouldn't—some things need to be asked gently and in the proper vibe. So I write this in the meantime as a place to put my thoughts and feelings. This is the first time I've ever felt romantically about someone, and it's such a rush. I just spent a while on the ace subreddits to try to learn more about what it's like to be ace, what the different types are, what our future could look like, and things I should ask her.
She is literally the girl of my dreams, whom I have dreamt of spending time with, sharing myself with, and generally being with. I always wanted to find a partner through physically meeting someone, getting to know them, becoming their friend, letting feelings grow over time, and finally asking them out. I achieved that; this is how I wanted things to go, and for that, I am incredibly happy. I didn't want to do the dating app grind that always looked like it felt awful and superficial. I don't know what the future holds for me, but I think things have gone well so far.